I dont completely understand my state of mind while writing this blog.A lot of things have happened since the last time I wrote here,some for the better,some for the worse...Some which have made me happy,some which havent so much..What I have realized is that I am a little stuck.I dont have a complete idea of where I am heading and for a guy who has always loved to plan things,this feeling is just not comfortable.
I think maybe some times I just think too much.However hard I try,I just cant change this fact about me.Anyway thats not what is troubling me the most at this time.What I am worried about is wanting to know if I were actually meant to do what I am doing now..I know this may sound insane to most.I mean IIMC is known to be one of the pinnacles of education in India.Surely it cant get much better than this..And lately I have started to think,what if it can?I talked about the thing that I had which made me so excited to start the new year.There have already been a lot of ebbs and flows to that thing and it is a little draining..Its like this-Happy day,Sad day,Happy day,Sad day and it goes on....
The first year is about to come to an end too...We start with our 3rd term end terms from the 2nd and they end on the 5th..And I leave for home on the 6th.At this time I can best describe what I am feeling as being tired mentally and wanting to rest.I have given up on my dream of going abroad by withdrawing from the STEP program.I have no idea where I will be posted during my internship and now I dont care anymore..I have kinda lost my intent on wanting to take up consulting as a career.I have no idea of what I want to do after I am through with my MBA.I dont know if this happens with other people as well but I always have been a big fan of dreams and their importance in our lives.I think the biggest motivation to wake up everyday is having a dream and having the passion to make it come true..At this time I have no dreams and this scares me....
People who want advice from me on how to prepare for IIM interviews always ask me one question-"Is there an ideal answer to the question-Why do you wanna do an MBA??"Now I have started to believe there better be.I would advise everyone who is looking for an ideal answer to look inside themselves and search for one.If you do find one and believe in it honestly,then you have an ideal answer.On the other hand if you cant find one,well then maybe after one year of your MBA you will be writing a similar blog post....Hence to every aspirant who gets an IIM GD-PI call today I would ask you to do one thing-INTROSPECT!
