Yet another Blog Post!

Here I am again.Back to the place I have become so accustomed to over the years.Singing my melancholy blues once again.Na na wont do it.I just realized that something ended today.I guess it never did start but I somehow had it built up in my head that it did and that it would go on to become the best thing that would ever happen to me.I was so anxious that I clung on to something that sadly did not even exist.And hence here I am again.Writing the same old blog entry which has kind of become a habit now.Even the song has started to hurt now.

I guess I kind of brought it unto myself.But then I got this impression that it would eventually work out.And that a certain someone would see what I wanted them to see.And what they should have seen.But I guess now that as time has gone on and taught me things,I just have stuck to my old habits more and more.I have always listened to my heart and although 'they' told me that that is what 'they' do as well,I guess I can safely say now that 'they' preach but 'they' do not follow it themselves.

Still I do not blame them.Although what they have been doing over the past 10 days has hurt me a lot but I should have known that the signs were ominous since a month.17th Feb was the beginning of the end and 19th March the end.The unfortunate thing was that the start if you want to call it that was only the beginning of Feb.And the story basically lasted just 4 days.Those 4 days were amazing though.Never in my life have I felt like I felt during those 4 days.

As I said in the last para,I dont blame them.I know that they are passing through a difficult phase in their life at the moment and I did not make things easier for them.I did not become what they would have liked me to become.I tried to become more than that and they were at this time not ready for it.And thats not their fault.The only problem I have with them is that I did try to change.And they still could not understand it.Or maybe they just did not want to.And for whatever we shared in those 4 days,I expected a better end.Story of my life.Looks like I always expect more than people are ready to offer.I still wish that they get what they are looking for in their life and somehow be more happy than they are now.With whoever they want to be happy with.

Anyway though the end has been swift,it will take some time for me to completely get over this.But then I am used to being here so it should not really be a big deal.Its just that I thought this time was different.I was wrong....Again.....