A sorry to someone.......

A lot of stuff transpired since I entered that last blog entry of mine.I rushed into something when I was not sure and ended up hurting a close friend.When you read this you know that I am talking to you.I want you to know that I value you a lot as a friend and not for once did I regret doing what I did that day.Coz I know that someday you will make some guy very happy.But at this point I just know that I am not that guy.And instead of carrying on when I could not give you the time you deserved would have been very unfair to you.

You understanding what I felt was a true testiment to my thinking that you are a very mature person.And for what its worth I really hope that you meant what you said in your mail that day.And that you still consider me a friend.Although I hurt you so much.You took a huge burden off of me by that mail today.And I thank you for it.And once again I say that word which is taken too lightly in this day and age-SORRY.......

Those days.....

Now this may sound like a pathetic loser talk to some people but I dont care.Just want to  put this down now when the flow of emotions is till strong enough.In this day and age we dont get to look back and think about the various choices that we have made in our lives a lot of times.Well sometimes it really helps if one does it.I dont know about everyone else but I have these days where I get that 'alone' feeling.And then I look at people who are happy and it man do I get those jealous feelings.

You know I still think that I am a good guy to talk to and be around.Infact I have no doubts about that fact. And when I look at some of the guys I know and things they look for in a relationship I do think that a girl would be lucky to have a guy like me.Its been 23 years.Way too long a time.And however much I wanna play it cool and feel like nothing is missing,there is something that is missing.And yeah people are right when they tell me that I havent tried hard enough.Infact I dont think I have tried at all.And I know I am putting myself down by saying all this but this is something that I cant deny.

When I get these sort of days I try and talk to people who I know can comfort me.And they always have one statement to make.God must be writing a great script for you.Man if that is true it must be one amazing story.

Honestly Ill tell you what I look for in a relationship.I look for someone to talk to.I look for someone that I can call when I have had a bad day.I look for someone to call when I have had a great day.I look for someone to hold hands with.I look for someone to share my dreams with.I know I am blabbering but the things I just described are really the things I look for.

I dont know what brought that all out today.But as I said before today is one of those days.And when I look at the time now the day is done.But I know that these days are gonna go more and more common if nothing happens soon.But I hope that if God is writing a script he does call 'action' soon.......

Samhar:have to see it to believe it!!

As I write this Samhar,The IIMC-IIMB sports meet is just about to get over.And it has been awesome.Something totally new for me as we didnt use to have events like these back in our engineering days.And boy did we miss something?having experienced this over 2 days now I think the spirit of a campus shines through so beautifully its amazing to be a part of it.
We had girls and guys from IIMB coming down here for the meet this time around.Before I describe the whole event let me just say that this event is just 2 years old from what I have heard.So it doesnt have the history that lets say an IIMC-XLRI sports meet has attached to it.But boy I cant imagine what will the event be like when its 38 years old which the XL event is now(even after the XL guys chickened out from coming here last year:P).
Ok so this weekend we had about 100 IIMB guys/girls coming down here for the various events.The events total 17 in number to be exact.The problem with our campus is that we dont have a lot of sporting practice facilities.So our teams can only practice when some event comes around.Last year IIMB had hosted the event and it was kind of a disgraceful result for us.We had managed to win just 2 out of 17 events.Those events were namely girls badminton and snooker.This time we were hell bent on putting a tougher fight.We welcomed the IIMB contingent and the event started with the girls throwball event.Now their girls were mostl well built atleast as compared to our girls.We were humbled in the first set and though our girls put up a better fight in the 2nd set we could not hold off B.But soon enough news came in that we had thrashed IIMB in cricket by a whopping margin of 45 runs in a 25 over game.In response to our 189 the B guys were at one stage 29-7 but managed to get close in the end.The evening started with the tennis event where our captain came up with a wonderful performance in the first match to come back from a set down and win it for us.Slowly other results started coming in and we had won guys basketball,snooker,athletics,guys table tennis,swimming but managed to lose girls and boys badminton,girls table tennis,girls basketball, volleyball and carrom.At the end of the 2 days the scoreline read 9-7 in favour of IIMB.The tennis event could not be completed in the end.
As I said we did promise a fight and we did give one.Here the spirit I am talking about came to the fore.You just had to be here to see the sledging show put on by our guys.It was one thing we surely beat them in.Anyway it was a wonderful experience for me.Hopefully next time during the planned IIM CABL meet in january i would not only participate in cheering but also try and win some event for my college.bring on January.