Those days.....

Now this may sound like a pathetic loser talk to some people but I dont care.Just want to  put this down now when the flow of emotions is till strong enough.In this day and age we dont get to look back and think about the various choices that we have made in our lives a lot of times.Well sometimes it really helps if one does it.I dont know about everyone else but I have these days where I get that 'alone' feeling.And then I look at people who are happy and it man do I get those jealous feelings.

You know I still think that I am a good guy to talk to and be around.Infact I have no doubts about that fact. And when I look at some of the guys I know and things they look for in a relationship I do think that a girl would be lucky to have a guy like me.Its been 23 years.Way too long a time.And however much I wanna play it cool and feel like nothing is missing,there is something that is missing.And yeah people are right when they tell me that I havent tried hard enough.Infact I dont think I have tried at all.And I know I am putting myself down by saying all this but this is something that I cant deny.

When I get these sort of days I try and talk to people who I know can comfort me.And they always have one statement to make.God must be writing a great script for you.Man if that is true it must be one amazing story.

Honestly Ill tell you what I look for in a relationship.I look for someone to talk to.I look for someone that I can call when I have had a bad day.I look for someone to call when I have had a great day.I look for someone to hold hands with.I look for someone to share my dreams with.I know I am blabbering but the things I just described are really the things I look for.

I dont know what brought that all out today.But as I said before today is one of those days.And when I look at the time now the day is done.But I know that these days are gonna go more and more common if nothing happens soon.But I hope that if God is writing a script he does call 'action' soon.......