an evening makes the difference!!!

IT’S HARD FEELING LIKE THIS!!!
HAVE U GUYS EVER HEARD THE SONG WHAT IS LOVE??MOST OF U WOULD HAVE.ANYWAYS IT IS A BIG QUESTION-WHAT IS LOVE??HOW DO YOU COME TO KNOW WHEN YOU DO FALL IN LOVE? MY FRIEND HAS MANY DEFINTIONS OF LOVE BUT ONE OF THEM I AGREE WITH THE MOST IS-‘LOVE IS A MULTIPLIER OF FEELINGS.’
BUT SOMETIMES I QUESTION MYSELF-IS THIS REALLY TRUE?I MEAN IF SOMEONE I THINK I LOVE IS GOING OUT WITH SOMEONE ELSE CAN I REALLY BE HAPPY FOR HER?I MEAN THAT IS ACTUALLY HAPPENING TO ME.I HAVE AS A GUY HAD MY SHARE OF CRUSHES SO FAR IN MY 20 YEARS.LIKE OTHER PEOPLE I HAVE PICTURED MYSELF WITH A FEW GIRLS AND THOUGHT WHAT WOULD IT BE LIKE GOING OUT WITH THEM?SOME OF THEM I HAVE LIKED WHEN I HAVE MET THEM FOR THE FIRST TIME SOME OF THEM GREW UPON ME.
BUT YOU KNOW IT MIGHT HAVE ACTUALLY HAPPENED TO SOME OF YOU.YOU JUST SEE A FACE AND FEEL LIKE OH MY GOD! WHERE THE HELLWAS SHE UPTO THIS TIME? WHY DIDN’T I FIND HER BEFORE? YOU HAVEN’T EVER TALKED TO THEM OR LOOKED AT THEM EVEN MORE THAN ONCE BUT YOU STILL FEEL A STRONG CONNECTION EVEN THOUGH THIS PERSON MAY NOT EVEN KNOW U EXIST.THEN YOU ACTUALLY THINK CAN THIS ACTUALLY BE LOVE??I MEAN I HAVE NEVER FELT LIKE THIS FOR ANYONE EVER BEFORE!!
I ACTUALLY FEEL LIKE THIS FOR HER.AND IT PAINS ME NO DOUBT AND I CAN’T DENY IT TO SEE HER WITH SOMEONE ELSE.ALTHOUGH PEOPLE SAY THAT IF YOU REALLY LOVE SOMEONE YOU WANNA SEE THEM HAPPY.I ACTUALLY MET THAT GUY TOO AND HE ACTUALLY SEEMED LIKE A NICE PERSON.BUT STILL IT FEELS LIKE IF THIS ACTUALLY IS LOVE THEN WHY ISN’T SHE WITH ME?I MET HER RECENTLY AND FELL MORE IN AWE OF HER.SHE KEPT TALKING AND I KEPT STARING AT HER FACE THE WHOLE TIME THINKING TO MYSELF GOD HOW CAN SOMEONE BE SO BEAUTIFUL.
I KNOW THAT SHE DOESN’T CARE MUCH FOR ME ACTUALLY SHE MIGHT NOT CARE FOR ME AT ALL.BUT THAT DOESN’T MATTER TO ME NOW.AND THAT ACTUALLY IS THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN HER AND THESE OTHER GIRLS WHO I HAVE LIKED SO FAR.I USED TO CARE FOR THEIR FEELINGS FOR ME.I DON’T ACTUALLY FOR HER FEELINGS FOR ME.ALTHOUGH I WOULD LIKE FOR THEM TO BE A LOT MORE THAN THEY ARE NOW.I KNOW I MAY BE THE STUPIDEST GUY ON EARTH ACTUALLY THINKING THAT THIS MIGHT BE POSSIBLE BUT I DON’T KNOW WHAT ELSE TO DO REALLY.I FIND MYSELF WANTING TO STAY CLOSE TO HER BY ACTUALLY SENDING HER A MAIL EVERYDAY.IT’S BEEN A VERY EMPTY FEELING SINCE THE DAY I MET HER.I GUESS THAT IS THE PARADOX OF LOVE REALLY.IF U HAVE THE ONE YOU LOVE WITH YOU THERE IS NO BETTER FEELING IN THIS WORLD.BUT IF YOU DON’T HAVE THE ONE YOU LOVE NOTHING CAN BE MORE FRUSTRATING.
IT’S LIKE IN THIS BOOK TUESDAYS WITH MORRIE WHICH IS ACTUALLY HER FAVOURITE BOOK THERE IS A VERY PRACTICAL THING THAT HAS BEEN THOUGHT ABOUT AND THAT IS THE TENSION AMONG OPPOSITES.IT’S LIKE A HUMAN BEING IS THOUGHT OF AS A RUBBER AND THERE ARE THINGS WHICH APPLY DUAL TENSION ON THIS RUBBER AND LOVE IS ONE OF THEM.SERIOUSLY I AM NO EXPERT ON THESE THINGS THIS IS JUST WHAT I FEEL.AND I HAVE DEVELOPED THESE FEELINGS JUST RECENTLY.I MEAN IT’S LIKE I WANT TO BE HAPPY FOR HER AND I AM IN SOME SORT OF A WAY.THAT SHE HAS FOUND SOMEONE.SOMEONE THAT SHE WANTS TO SPEND HER LIFE WITH.BUT ON THE OTHER HAND I WISH GOD I WISH WHY CAN’T I BE THAT GUY?ANYWAYS I THINK THIS IS ENOUGH FOR TODAY.I WILL KEEP WRITING AND PUT THIS IN A BLOG THAT I AM GONNA CREATE.