i don't know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this is wat i feel for her..............................
to someone very special(u know who),
i dont know wat my feelings for u really are!i dont know if i love you or if i dont.maybe i have never known love or maybe no one ever has.love has been defined by many and all those definitions seem so right.but what i feel is probably beyond these definitons.
ppl say that there cant be a one sided love.i am not so sure about that anymore.all i know is that whenever u are around my heart beats fast and slow at the same time.when u talk,i listen...............when u are happy,i smile...............when u are sad,i cry...........
i know this sounds absurd.but in this absurdness lies its beauty.
i dont know if words really matter for often i am lost for them.for sometimes what i feel is beyond words.coz words are limited to dictionaries.i dont think a dictionary can define love.
and every shade of love each so unique in its own way will need a billion dictionaries for every heart which beats in love.............
from watever little i know of love 'i can say that it is not subject to logics and algorithms.there is no specific way,no rules,no methods and no conventions it can be subject to.
you and me,me and you may never fit in the routines of this world.but ill always remember wat i felt for u as my rebellion.a rebellion to all norms,all definitions,all conventions that the world has made for love.
for i know if love exists,i love u....in a way only i can and only i will............